Boring and Unoriginal

I never thought I would be using this little journal to brag about myself but this place has become a place where I can just say whatever I am thinking about myself whether it is good or bad. Whining or Bragging.

I am good at showing up for the most part. I have showed up for a friend even though I would have rather not. Sometimes building a community means not getting to do what I really want to do. I visited someone in the hospital even though I had already done my 'part'.

I make good food and I am open.

I wish that there was a little something about me that set me apart in a significant way OR that I had at least one original thought. I listened to a podcast today and the woman who was speaking was saying exactly what I would like to say. She is doing what I would like to do, being who I would like to be. I feel about as original as a one dollar bill or coin as the case may be. This is really bothering me today. I thought that at least my thoughts were mine but it seems like I share a lot of thinking with this lady who did the podcast. gah.

Just an update on meeting the new friends... It went well. My insecurity showed a little when I was a bit condescending a couple of times. I tried very hard not to be when I noticed that I was. She is a very good artist and very confident person. She seems really nice. I think she felt put on the spot a bit which didn't help that I was a bit condescending. I think she didn't mind our little group but I also think she felt a wee bit left out - not entirely excluded but on the fringes.

An update on the losing weight...I think I am dooming myself to be fat. Yay Me!