How did I get to this age?

Really, how did I become this chubby middle age brunette?

I need to dress up tomorrow and make myself feel beautiful so that I am not so bitter. I feel very unattractive. I feel like no man would look on me and think OH YES! I look like a mommy which isn't that bad of a thing but I want to feel attractive even if really there is no chance of an OH YES! Because even in my salad days I was never an OH YES! I was more of a "Oh, that is nice."

Tomorrow I am doing my hair, putting on my favourite clothes and just be attractive.